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Death On Purpose

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“God, you are good! God, you are GOOD! I don’t know why you’re allowing this, but I know you’re a good God in it all, and I trust you.” Cleaning the kitchen in order to distract myself from the depressing feelings, slight anxiety, and slight health struggles, I pray this over and over till I feel it. The biggest worry I’ve had in my life has been my health. Through bigger trials though, I have become much stronger in trusting God and worrying less. Lately, I’ve seem to hit a little speed bump, like as if satan has sent his annoying demons to pester me. Just enough to steal some joy and get me worrying.

I am in awe of God in these times. Every time I go through a season that has me feeling weaker, God’s voice seems to be louder and he seems to speak more often. Last week he spoke to me 3 times during my church service and twice the night before! I really needed it that night, and he knew.

Currently I’m reading through the book of Acts, having just finished the book of Luke, it seemed the obvious choice (they have the same author, and he wrote Acts write after he wrote Luke). As I was reading chapter 3 this morning, I saw Peter essentially yelling at the people after he and John, through the power of the Holy Spirit, healed the lame man. “Men of Israel, why do you wonder at this, or why do you stare at us, as though by our own power or piety we have made him walk? The God of Abraham, the God of Isaac, and the God of Jacob, the God of our fathers, glorified his servant Jesus, whom you delivered over and denied in the presence of Pilate, when he had decided to release him. But you denied the Holy and Righteous One, and asked for a murderer to be granted to you, and you killed the Author of Life, whom God raised from the dead. To this we are witnesses.” Can I just say, it sounds a little like Peter had some bitter feelings, and rightly so. But in his righteous anger I see a different point being made.

As I read this it dawned on me. If God could plan, from the beginning, that His OWN son would have to die the worst death in order for a very good thing to take place, then isn’t it possible that the horrible things that happen in my life could be set in place in order for a very good thing to take place?

I mean, my goodness! How is it that I always feel like the bad things happening in my life are somehow not in God’s plans? During my trials I always, initially, feel bleak about it, like, “No good could possible come from this.” But I have learned to pray the prayer at the beginning of this post because it reminds me that God is good and allows all things in his goodness. Even death…

So I am reminded today that my crap couldn’t possibly make me feel as bleak and hopeless as the disciples and followers of Jesus felt in the 3 long days after Jesus died. To them, death had defeated the one they thought had come to deliver them, the Messiah! I can imagine trust and doubt had a showdown, and for some of them doubt was probably winning. I mean, the worst-case scenario happened. The thing Jesus was supposed to defeat, had defeated him. Or so they thought. And I imagine God was looking at them the way he looks at us when we doubt him in our trials, “Oh ye of little faith, hang on a little longer and you’ll understand.” And when they saw Jesus face-to-face, alive and well, 3 days after his death, it ALL made sense.

So I am reminded today, that this little trial I am going through was in the plans since God knew me. Though satan thinks he’s winning when he sees me struggling, God knows, and I know, that God has already won this battle and I will be even stronger when it’s done. And God will get more glory as I see his workings in it all.

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Armor Bearer’s, We Are

Recently my sister and I had a conversation about the armor of God (referenced below) and how sometimes we get into such a deep trial of life that we can’t seem to find our sword (the spiritual weapon of warfare utilized by the tongue to cut the lies of our soul’s enemy). All the Scriptures we need to strengthen us seem to abandon us. It’s like there’s a dark cloud all around us and not only can we not find our way, but finding our sword is out of the question. I am thankful for the times God speaks directly to me through a sermon, a song, or in my time reading the Word. As I’ve learned from Priscilla Shirer in her Armor Of God study, it’s the times when a verse or word jumps out at you as if it was made just for you in that moment; it’s then that God is giving you a sword for your trial. That verse that jumped off the page at you is now a sword placed in your sheath. Draw it as needed.
But then there’s times when it seems none of that happens and for days we feel lost. This story of Saul and David (referenced below) reminds me of what Jen and I were talking about. It’s in those times that we need each other. In the times when I can’t find my sword, I need an armor bearer. As David was for Saul, I need my sisters to come beside me and pick up my sword (which they see so clearly) and hand it back to me. I need them to play their lyre so my torment will cease for a while. I need to be able to call them and know they are going to remind me of who I am in Christ and show me again just how big His plans are for me. Because as you walk closely with your sisters and brothers, you start to see just how big God’s plans are for them. You start to know exactly what verses they’ll need in the moments they need it most. You start to know exactly what to pray for them and how to pray it. And that’s what God wants us to do for each other.
So let us not be afraid to reach out to our close friends in our time of need, no matter how ashamed or burdensome we feel we are. Those feelings are lies the enemy whispers in our ear in order to stop us from building an army against him. The less people fighting with us, the greater chance he has at defeating us; or so he thinks. And may we never be afraid to call someone we know is struggling for fear we are incapable of helping. If we are willing, God will use us. In those moments may we remember that it’s only in our weakness that we can truly see how strong God is. Sometimes just our reaching out is enough encouragement for that person to keep fighting.
Anytime we are not struggling, someone else is, so if we are not bearing arms for ourselves at the moment, we should be bearing arms for someone else.
Oh how grateful I am for my close-knit sisters who know me so well. Who know my shameful weaknesses, yet don’t shame me. Who know my fears and know just how to encourage me. And I am so grateful God has enabled me to be their armor bearer when they need it. That He has empowered me with the words to say to encourage them and show them just how strong they are even though they feel weak.
These connections in our sisterly bond make us that much stronger against the enemy of our soul. Fighting him alone can be so much work sometimes. But fighting him with our little army, that’s automatic victory!

“Now the Spirit of the Lord departed from Saul, and a harmful spirit from the Lord tormented him. And Saul’s servants said to him, “Behold now, a harmful spirit from God is tormenting you. Let our lord now command your servants who are before you to seek out a man who is skillful in playing the lyre, and when the harmful spirit from God is upon you, he will play it, and you will be well.” So Saul said to his servants, “Provide for me a man who can play well and bring him to me.” One of the young men answered, “Behold, I have seen a son of Jesse the Bethlehemite, who is skillful in playing, a man of valor, a man of war, prudent in speech, and a man of good presence, and the Lord is with him.” Therefore Saul sent messengers to Jesse and said, “Send me David your son, who is with the sheep.” And Jesse took a donkey laden with bread and a skin of wine and a young goat and sent them by David his son to Saul. And David came to Saul and entered his service. And Saul loved him greatly, and he became his armor-bearer. And Saul sent to Jesse, saying, “Let David remain in my service, for he has found favor in my sight.” And whenever the harmful spirit from God was upon Saul, David took the lyre and played it with his hand. So Saul was refreshed and was well, and the harmful spirit departed from him.”
‭‭1 Samuel‬ ‭16:14-23‬ ‭ESV‬‬

“A final word: Be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. Put on all of God’s armor so that you will be able to stand firm against all strategies of the devil. For we are not fighting against flesh-and-blood enemies, but against evil rulers and authorities of the unseen world, against mighty powers in this dark world, and against evil spirits in the heavenly places.
Therefore, put on every piece of God’s armor so you will be able to resist the enemy in the time of evil. Then after the battle you will still be standing firm. Stand your ground, putting on the belt of truth and the body armor of God’s righteousness. For shoes, put on the peace that comes from the Good News so that you will be fully prepared. In addition to all of these, hold up the shield of faith to stop the fiery arrows of the devil. Put on salvation as your helmet, and take the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.
Pray in the Spirit at all times and on every occasion. Stay alert and be persistent in your prayers for all believers everywhere.
And pray for me, too. Ask God to give me the right words so I can boldly explain God’s mysterious plan that the Good News is for Jews and Gentiles alike. I am in chains now, still preaching this message as God’s ambassador. So pray that I will keep on speaking boldly for him, as I should.”
Ephesians 6:10-20 ESV


A New Law…Sort of (Part 2)

Ok, so basically…
Jesus fulfilled the law, this doesn’t mean the Ten Commandments and other OT laws. It refers to all the Mosaic law. The law that people followed for the forgiveness of their sins. The difference between the two is this…
The law that the OT people obeyed for the forgiveness of their sins was a ritual they practiced for just that. Jesus came and fulfilled all of this so we no longer have to perform these laws/rituals.
The Ten Comm. weren’t given as rules to be followed through ritual. Rather, they were given as rules to just live by daily. In all we do keep them in mind and don’t break them, is all. -Like good morals to follow, they don’t change your daily routine (except for maybe someone who is just starting their walk with Jesus).
So yes, there is freedom in Christ, as He has fulfilled the law that would require us to change our daily routine altogether.
My question then is where does tithing and tattoo’s fit in? In Leviticus it talks about men not shaving any hair on their face…hmmm? Did Christ change the rule on tithing regarding what I said in my last blog at the end? In Matthew 5:17-20 Jesus says, (and I read this this morning)

“Do not think that I have come to abolish the Law or the Prophets; I have not come to abolish them but to fulfill them. I tell you the truth, until heaven and earth disappear, not the smallest letter, not the least stroke of a pen, will by any means disappear from the Law until everything is accomplished. Anyone who breaks one of the least of these commandments and teaches others to do the same will be called least in the kingdom of heaven, but whoever practices and teaches these commands will be called great in the kingdom of heaven. For I tell you that unless your righteousness surpasses that of the Pharisees and the teachers of the law, you will certainly not enter the kingdom of heaven.”

Then in the following verses he talks about some of the rules of the law and and tweaks them, but only in a stricter sense. Not in a releasing sense. But when Jesus talks about giving to others, even the coat on your back if they need it, does that tweak the tithing law? I’m thinking not, because he would have specifically said so.
As usual, any comments or questions are welcome 🙂


A New Day

So this morning I decided I need to get more serious about my relationship with Jesus. So I changed my Bible app on my phone to one that has a daily Bible plan everyday for the next year. So everyday I can read a chunk of the Bible, not just a daily verse. Which is good, because when I read the verse it’s usually in the middle of doing something and not really memorized. Usually it’s forgotten. I try to make myself feel better by telling myself that as long as I read it once, it’s in my heart somewhere and if God wants me to share that verse, He’ll bring it to my mind…Just writing that out feels so silly, because it is!
So I’m on this new adventure (hopefully a lasting one), and I’ve decided I should blog my way through the Bible. I have had, well sort of writer’s block, for the last couple of months. But reader of mine, I have not forgotten you. And today I have finally returned 🙂 Hopefully I will not disappoint you.
I haven’t fully read through today’s reading, but I’m on the 3rd (of 4) chapter. Today’s reading is Revelation 19 through Revelation 22. I’ve gotta say, I have never really read the book of Revelation, I’m really just scared. It brings up a topic that I need the Holyspirit to fill me with his presence on. I should know better, though. Anytime I take time to read God’s word, the Holyspirit shows me something and it’s not fearful at all.
So far I’ve read chapter 19 and 20, and I’ve started 21. While reading 21, though, I felt the Lord telling me to stop to write a blog. And the kids are still sleeping, so it seems I have perfect timing…none but the Lord.
This passage is about the end of the earth, and the beginning of the new one. The first verse I want to talk about is 19:6. “Then I heard what sounded like a great multitude, like the roar of rushing waters, and like loud peals of thunder, shouting: “Hallelujah! For our Lord God Almighty reigns.”” I couldn’t help but listen to those sounds in my head, thanks to the thunderstorms we’ve been experiencing lately. And thanks to Hollywood’s Armageddon-type movies, I can hear the roar of rushing waters. But combine these with the shouting of praises and it becomes unfathomable and my heart becomes so excited thinking I may hear this one day! And then I think of my mom, growing up, who would roll down the windows, mid winter, just to hear the jets taking off as we drove down Airport Rd. Hehe, I giggle to myself.
Then starting in verse 19 I read how the beast and the false prophet “who had performed signs on its behalf.” had been captured. The false prophet “with these signs…had deluded those who had received the mark of the beast and worshiped its image. The two of them were thrown alive into the fiery lake of burning sulfur.” This chapter just gets better and better.
And in chapter 20:4 we read how Christ will reign a thousand years while Satan is bound in the Abyss for a thousand years. And that all who were beheaded for Christ, who had not received the mark of the beast, will reign with Christ in those thousand years! But it says the rest of the dead won’t come to life until after the thousand years. This has really encouraged me. I already knew that the reward was amazing for being martyred, but I really had no idea it was that great!
Lastly, in chapter 21, there is a new heaven and a new earth. Basically, God will be living among us! Then in verse 7 and 8 it says something that really hit me. “7 Those who are victorious will inherit all this, and I will be their God and they will be my children. 8 But the cowardly, the unbelieving, the vile, the murderers, the sexually immoral, those who practice magic arts, the idolaters and all liars–they will be consigned to the fiery lake of burning sulfur.” Well, I know I have lied without ever telling some people the truth. I have been cowardly when God has asked me to go out of my comfort zone to spread His Word. I have been some of the other things too, but have repented. Only the lies have I asked for forgiveness from God, but not all the people I’ve lied to. Hmmm. What does this mean for me? Should I go to all these people and tell them the truth of whom I can remember? I would like feedback on this one.
Regardless, while reading the whole passage, I basically decided in my heart that I shouldn’t be living as comfortable as I am. And I have been around many Christians who claim it’s OK to live comfortably, as long as your heart is right. But I know the Bible tells us we are aliens of this world. Which means that by our very thoughts and actions, uncomfortability should be our normal. Because an alien is never comfortable in a foreign land, that making excuses for being comfortable is just icing over the guilt so many Christians feel. Eventually they don’t feel guilty, because it is who they’ve become, and they get angry when anyone tells them they need to get out of their comfort zone, they feel judged.
How I came to this realization through this passage? Well I actually can’t remember. But God used this passage somehow to show me it. I hope you can learn something life-changing from it too, should you choose to read it 🙂